Noah's Private Journal

Well today was fun. Not. I sat down at church today and Jack slid into the pew next to me and he had this grin on his face. I asked him what was up and he just winked and looked forward. He kept making these faces and finally I realized that he was silently attempting to communicate and/or flirt with Kayleen McGovern. She’s a senior, co-captain of the cheerleading squad, and any straight guy’s definition of “smokin’ hot”. It made me roll my eyes the whole time after I realized what they were doing, and then after church my mom tried to get me to go to lunch with some family friends, but I opted to walk to Jack’s place with him like usual.

On the way he told me all about how he and Kayleen were dating now and she was “totally hot” and “an amazing kisser” and then once we were in his room he dropped it on me. He told me all about how last night Kayleen’s parents were home so they went back to his place and had sex. Jack kept going on and on about how it was the most amazing thing ever and how I’ve got to try it because it’s awesome and she was so hot and good. And it was all I could do to stop from running out of the room or to start crying. Jack just has no idea how I feel about him or how hard it was for me to pretend to be supportive. I mean…its not like I’m terribly jealous or anything…at least not about the sex. I wouldn’t even know where to start if I were to think about having sex with Jack. It just kind of seems weird. But it’s not like it would happen anyways. He slept with a girl now, and he’s likely to have loads more awesome straight sex. Good for him.